12.15.2010

Fighting

I'm still struggling daily with medications and my depression. I think with Christmas coming up, and my family at it's current state, it makes things harder.  With my health in mind I decided that I would spend Christmas with my favorite family in East Texas. They are the most loving, caring, and fun family I know, and I trust that they truly support me and have been there for me.

I attended my first Rape Support group last week, and will be going again today. It was actually really good. I can't believe I didn't want to go to these groups before. There were only two other survivors there, but even their presence and stories helped me understand more and not feel so isolated. My therapist that I was seeing since I moved home is leaving her practice, and she was going to switch me to another therapist, but this woman does not have training in trauma- which is paramount.

I want to make this clear to anyone who has been raped or molested or beaten within a relationship, it is so incredibly important to see a therapist who has experience in trauma, otherwise, they don't really know how to help you. I've been going to therapy for almost my entire life- and I never felt truly helped until I began seeing this one therapist in Houston who has many years in experience working with women and men who have experienced trauma.

So, with that said, instead of switching to this other woman, who does not have experience in trauma, I decided to take the free sessions offered by the Rape Crisis Center. They only offer ten, but I'm so determined to get through this, that I hope that's all I need.

I wanted to end with this quote from The Daily Love:



"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain. And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy; And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields. And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief."


- Kahlil Gibran, author of The Prophet.

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